Welcome to the forum...it does take courage to lay your soul bare on here I agree. However, I find it is worth it to share with people who know exactly how you feel. Indeed, I share your frustration about retirement...my problems began when I was 60, just as I went from full time to part time in my job. I had done nearly 20 years in a high street bank and was able to claim my company and state pensions, whilst still earning a decent salary !
We planned to go on lots more holidays, improve our home and generally enjoy ourselves. This wasn't to be and within 2 yrs, I was using a wheelchair outdoors and felt as though I had been robbed of my future!
Still life goes on in different ways..my lovely husband Pete is becoming more of a carer these days but we still enjoy a good laugh when we can
One of our members lives in Scotland...Samantha Crawford who is only 37. Look out for her posts as she is an inspiration to us all. There are a few of us on Facebook too, so maybe you can join us there as well ?
Also, check out if there is a support group any where near you and don't forget the specialist nurses on here...they will answer any queries you may have.
I am happy to chat anytime and do hope you will keep in touch.